all that's left are the sugar crystals

Seeing as though this is about my current stress level, please don't mock me for not having the stamina to completely transform this into a cookie model of my life. Coherent sentences are out of the question, so here's a haphazard list.

school: pro-almost over, con-almost over
relationships: pro-close friends, con-close friends
home: pro-n/a con-everything
procrastination: pro-time to do (useless) stuff, con-time to do useless stuff

confusion level from 1 to punching stuff: fist through the wall
stress level from 1 to meltdown: fetal position

title in progress...

It's Summer,
and the excitement is as hot as the July sun that beats down on the one who burns easy, but loves the tan anyway.
It's Fall,
and the mystery is as vibrant as the October leaves that float down about the one who fights the wind, but loves being outdoors anyway.
It's Winter,
and the feeling is as frozen as the January river that streams from the eye of the one who catches a cold, but loves the snow anyway.
It's Spring,
and the hope is as inspiring as the April flowers that bloom around the one who gets rained on, but loves picnics anyway.
It's Constant,
and the cycle is as magical as the New Year that renews the life of the one who lives for love, but doesn't understand anyway.
It's Tragedy,
and the heart is as full as can be-
engulfing the one who can't win anyway.

well turns out

that oreo is double-stuffed and icing just wants to stay in the can. And ohhh double fudge chocolate chip, why must you be so charming and so fattening at the same time. Not to mention oatmeal raisin, which is plain oatmeal one bite and sugary raisin another. It's COOKIE MADNESS!

just a short post to vent my frustration.

What are the consequences

of a sugar cookie saying, hey icing...I know we go together like Sonny and Cher, but I want something more. Sugar cookie is content with just icing for certain moments, but sometimes sugar cookie wants to be a white chocolate macadamia nut cookie-it looks so damn light and is interesting in a different way than the plain but trustworthy icing. Sometimes the excitement of a samoa, which sugar cookie has wanted to be for a long time, or even an oreo, can be overwhelming. If sugar cookie wants to be more than sugar cookie, why just go with icing when there are so many more cookies out there? Why not throw caution to the wind and change completely...just go there instead of playing it safe? Sugar cookie needs the intensity of the double fudge choclate chip cookie every now and then too.

Indecision,

you eat at me and I hate you for it.

There's a cookie. Said cookie doesn't necessarily have to have anything added to it to make it more delectable, it's fine on it's own, but this cookie doesn't like being plain. Yes, sugar cookie. So sugar cookie gets iced and looks better now, but doesn't taste any better than before. Isn't sugar cookie really just selling out for comfort? Besides, icing doesn't even want to be seen hugged up to sugar cookie anyway. Why can't sugar cookie be chocolate chip cookie instead? See, chocolate chips are more rich than just plain old sugar cookie icing and sugar cookie wants to have a more passionate taste and not just a familiar taste. To make it even worse, there are tons of types of cookie more sought after than just plain ol' sugar cookie. Can sugar cookie change though-it's not in sugar cookie's nature to be so daringly savory. Hey, should sugar cookie even be iced at all? Doesn't that take away from sugar cookie's nature too? What's a cookie to do?

new music kick (ramblings cause this is mine and I can)

stellar new music I get to experience [:
any suggestions?
however, I should be rehearsing my damn Hamlet soliloquy. Don't get me wrong, I love reading it, but I'm not a fan of having to recite it "with passion" in front of my classmates. If I weren't getting graded on it, it'd be a piece of cake, but the pressure makes me stutter! ahhhh. Umm, Jordan decided he's signing me up for American Idol next year and I haven't followed it in a looooong time and geez, the judges are tough this year, ha kinda scary for next year, but I'm game, stagefright and all. Ohhh like 10 days till I hear from S.C. chika chika yeah. Beta Beauty Pageant is saturday awwwehh, should be wonderful. Uhhh, oh yeah, we were talking about prom in AP Lit. and Jenna listed the couples and then continued to say "Hillary doesn't have anyone." Ha, my life! So I said I did have a date and everybody got all excited asking who, I said Joe and everyone let out this unison "aww" including Mrs. Batchelor haha. Innnnteresting....Sam was like right there too ha. OH OH OH!!! BACKSTREET BOYS ON JUNE 3RD....I die. Hahaha, I just got a Facebook message from this guy Stan saying "i know this is random but...... you are really hot" ewwwwwww eff my life. Annnnd, I there's this thing I wanna talk about but can't here, so I'm glad Billie is there for me!! Let's go prom dress shopping lady!
I love how shallow my blogs are sounding lately ha, gosh.
that's all for now, that'll do pig.

no reason in particular

-I have this urge to splatter paint all over my walls and paste random pictures to it. Alas, I cannot.
-I need to fax in this damn financial aid stuff, but the rents won't let me go into town due to the snow.
-THE SNOW: love it and hate it, don't want to go to school and don't want to loose spring break, want to see some people and never want to see some people.
-I need to spend a weekend with Megan, cause I miss her. I also need to start looking for a prom dress with Billie!
-I also need to focus more in school, damn senioritis!
-Counting down to:March 15th, Washington, my Birthday, moving out, graduation.

I've got nothing else to say, g'day